- Backstory- The night before last, Emberly got out of bed at least 50 times and would not go to sleep even though she was dead tired.
- Richard: So you're going to stay in bed tonight, right? You're not going to keep getting up?
- Em: We'll see what happens...
- I had to go into our bedroom to keep myself from laughing out loud in front of her. Ironically enough... she didn't get out of bed once and slept all night!
I was tagged by annamannix in the “6 photos that make you feel good/beautiful” challenge
1.) This was taken at my best friend’s house when I was 16 or 17 (I think)
2.) My 21st birthday. We went to the beach and my fiance (now hubs) gave me that necklace that I still wear every day
3.) Our wedding
4.) Emberly & I
5.) Our family - last October
6.) Both of my girls & I a few weeks ago
I’m actually glad that it’s taken me this long to write all of my thoughts out about having two kids, otherwise it would be a pretty depressing post.
At first it was hard. Like, really hard. For the first week, Emberly would scream and throw a tantrum whenever I nursed Cambria. It was awful and I’m so grateful that I had Richard at home because he would re-direct her and take her out of the room to read stories or watch an episode of the Backyardigans. Emberly also happened to get sick right after we came home from the hospital, so I tried to stay away from her as much as possible because I was terrified of having a sick 2 day old baby. I’m sure that didn’t help our situation much.
After that first week, Emberly didn’t really pay much attention to the baby. It didn’t really matter that Cambria was around, and the only time she noticed is when Cambria cried, and then she told me to feed her/ change her diaper/ make her sleep.
Once Cambria had been with us for a couple weeks, Emberly started showing more interest and started asking to hold her often. Now she asks to hold her everyday, tickles her toes, gives her hugs and kisses all of the time, and is completely enamored with her little sister. She loves being a big sister!
I was a little worried at first, but now it’s great. Em is a great helper and brings me burp cloths, blankets, and even toys that she wants to share. There are still moments where I can tell she is a little jealous and acts up to get attention, but we both try to play and read to her as much as we can so that she doesn’t feel left out.
It helps a lot that Cambria has been such an easy baby so far. I can set her down whenever I need to for the most part unless she is hungry or needs to be changed. Having a newborn is so much easier the second time around!
Poop Comes in All Shapes & Sizes?
- Em: Mama, I pushed out my poop on the potty!
- Me: Awesome! High five *high fives*
- Em: It was a giant poop!
- Me: Oh?
- Em: Yeah! But it wasn't a square, it was a circle poop
- Me: ...
- Em: I can make a rhombus poop too!
- Me: ... you can?
- Em: Yeah! You can too! You go sit on the potty and make a rhombus poop... or a semi circle
- Me: I'll give it my best shot...
Blurry Smiles <3
Q:I choose to stay at home so I understand your dilemma. There's a ton of ways you can cut back spending to save money. And as for entertaining your children 24/7... you really don't. A few activities throughout the week are good but for the most part kids entertain themselves fairly well. Also think of free activities outside your home like the library that maybe they could do. Just some food for thought on the SAHM end of things.
Thank you for this! I had a few people message me and say that I’m putting too much pressure on myself on the stay-at-home side of things. I guess I worded my post incorrectly, I don’t actually feel that my children are better off without me. Just educationally. I feel like they could just learn a lot more (both intellectually and socially) in a preschool type of setting rather than at home with me.
I’m also not the person who likes to sit at home all day, I love to be out and about! So I definitely would try to incorporate our favorite things like the library, the farm, the park, etc.
The daycare that we interviewed today was AWFUL (all caps and bolded isn’t even going far enough, that’s how weird it was). It’s definitely making me consider staying home, but we still have one more place to interview next week. If that doesn’t work out, I have a couple other options, but I think I’d definitely try to make staying home work out.
Cambria - 8 weeks / 2 months
- 11 lbs 1 oz (50th percentile)
- 23 1/4 inches long (90th percentile)
- 39 1/2 cm head circumference (90th percentile)
Not much is new this week, Cambria is still the happiest baby that I have ever met! She loves to smile, “talk”, and is an absolute dream to take care of.
Back to Work?
I have no idea what is going on. I’m having an identity crisis of the worst kind and I have so many thoughts and ideas and worries in my head that there is no way I would ever be able to voice them all. I hope that by writing it all out here, it will help me sort things out and give me a small sense of control.
I have to go back to work on August 18th, about 3 weeks. I have to be back on that day, my federally protected leave will be over and they can fire me and find someone else to replace me if I don’t go back. Here is my dilemma…